i_rabbit

11/26/2005

Dog Day Afternoon

Filed under: musing — rabbit @ 2:02 pm

Sibelius Oozer Jakon - R.I.P.

Sibelius Oozer Jakon

My dog has died.
I buried him in the garden
next to a rusted old machine.

Some day I’ll join him right there,
but now he’s gone with his shaggy coat,
his bad manners and his cold nose,
and I, the materialist, who never believed
in any promised heaven in the sky
for any human being,
I believe in a heaven I’ll never enter.
Yes, I believe in a heaven for all dogdom
where my dog waits for my arrival
waving his fan-like tail in friendship.

Ai, I’ll not speak of sadness here on earth,
of having lost a companion
who was never servile.
His friendship for me, like that of a porcupine
withholding its authority,
was the friendship of a star, aloof,
with no more intimacy than was called for,
with no exaggerations:
he never climbed all over my clothes
filling me full of his hair or his mange,
he never rubbed up against my knee
like other dogs obsessed with sex.

No, my dog used to gaze at me,
paying me the attention I need,
the attention required
to make a vain person like me understand
that, being a dog, he was wasting time,
but, with those eyes so much purer than mine,
he’d keep on gazing at me
with a look that reserved for me alone
all his sweet and shaggy life,
always near me, never troubling me,
and asking nothing.

Ai, how many times have I envied his tail
as we walked together on the shores of the sea
in the lonely winter of Isla Negra
where the wintering birds filled the sky
and my hairy dog was jumping about
full of the voltage of the sea’s movement:
my wandering dog, sniffing away
with his golden tail held high,
face to face with the ocean’s spray.

Joyful, joyful, joyful,
as only dogs know how to be happy
with only the autonomy
of their shameless spirit.

There are no good-byes for my dog who has died,
and we don’t now and never did lie to each other.

So now he’s gone and I buried him,
and that’s all there is to it.

~ Pablo Neruda

11/16/2005

Evolution

Filed under: musing — rabbit @ 2:00 pm

my evolution comes
in seasons with the sun,
and gusts with the wind,
and ebbs with the tide,
and sometimes burns,
like the phoenix,
anew.

11/15/2005

It Ain’t Me

Filed under: musing — rabbit @ 11:49 am

I am somewhat speechless at how things are unfolding. The past few weeks I have felt this presence in my life, like the grace of god, as I watch my life and intentions manifest anew. It is as if all my prayers have been answered and tree ripened fruit is falling into my outstretched hands. I am filled with awe and wonder and joy. My mantra for the past eight months - every morning when setting my intention in yoga I think; “I empty myself by letting go, so that I may be filled by letting love, letting god, flow through me unto others.”

Distilled to:

let go.
let love.
let god.

and it has been working in miraculous ways. it ain’t *me* anymore…

11/10/2005

Glossolalia

Filed under: musing — rabbit @ 11:11 am

Whispered sofltly in your ear, tongue-tied and blissful;

take this key,
unlock my door,
speak friend and enter.
show me those innermost places
where i can melt with you
and come completely
unraveled

i am yours lover.

11/3/2005

Gentle One

Filed under: musing — rabbit @ 10:41 am

What happened before?
Someone has been in my mind for time with no beginning.

When was that?
There has never been a moment when they were gone.

Who are they?
I live, and live again, the mental afflictions.

And in the end?
They will leave me alone to rot in the ocean of suffering life, without an end in sight.

And the karma?
It comes like the wind, with all the things I never wanted.

How far?
It whips around me everywhere and stirs great waves – the three forms of suffering.

How long?
I could wander around this sea forever – the torch would spin and the circle of light would blaze.

What should I see?
Think on this, and see that the afflictions of the mind are the one true enemy.

What must be done?
The enemy of living for this life must die.

Who shall do it?
You must pretend that you are warrior enough to be the one.

When will it come?
Your foes, the afflictions in your mind, have always been there, waiting for battle.

Now then?
The time has surely come – go forth now and defeat them.

~ Ngawang Lobsang Gyatso, the Fifth Dalai Lama

11/1/2005

I <3 My Mac!

Filed under: musing — rabbit @ 10:20 am

12 inch iBook

I joined the Apple revolution yesterday by purchasing a 12″ iBook. Now I can really take the music production to a new level with Live 5. Look for lots more Ļфρ-Ļфρ from DJs KTKTKT and i_rabbit soon! Thank you, thank you, thank you, RealNetworks & Microsoft for settling your differences and making my options worth cashing in!

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